Sunday, January 2, 2011

Best Wishes for the New Year, Sorry for the Sob Story

Dear Friends,

Thank you all for your comforting words and thoughts, and your prayers.

As I struggle to come to terms with the situation I unexpectedly found myself in, I kicked myself repeatedly for not seeing it coming.

Beware - things may not be what they seem at all. Never in my wildest dreams I imagine myself going through what I'm going through now.

I had absolutely no intention of ending the year with that kind of post. It is not fair to you my readers to be burdened with what is a very personal matter.

While I was hesitant to share the exact nature of the tragedy, I couldn't help but put my feelings down as I have done on many occasions in this blog. I have been sharing both happy and sad moments with you.


Some of you had called it brave and generous.


Until now I'm not sure if it was not a stupid thing to do. I risked turning away my faithful followers and readers.

It was to be my last post. I just hope that some good came out of it.

What happen to me now is of little consequence. If you guys had learned something from this episode in my life, then my pain and suffering had not been in vain.

It just so happen that this is the dawn of a new year. My very best wishes to all for a delightful and peaceful journey ahead. What a way to start mine. If there's a silver lining, (or hikmah, as we call it) I haven't seen it yet.

Remember, don't take things for granted - show your appreciation to your spouse, your children, your parents, and all your loved ones before it is too late.



19 comments:

Su said...

A good reminder for us all. My thoughts are with you!

Grandpa said...

Su, I'm so sad that I've not been able to response to your kind gesture in a more appropriate manner, due to what I'm going through.

It's even more touching to feel your kindness and sincerity that despite that you are still here for me.

Thank you so much, and all the very best for the new year to you and Chad.

NancyDe said...

Spotty rural internet left me unable to respond -but able to pray. My thoughts and prayers have been with you.

Grandpa said...

NancyDe, I fully understand your situation. I'm grateful for a friend like you too. Thank you.

Carole Anne Carr said...

Thoughts and prayers are with you.

secret agent woman said...

No bad can come of speaking your heart. And one of the best things about blogging is having a wide network of people holding you in their hearts when you grieve.

Grandpa said...

Carole Anne Carr, thank you.

secret agent woman, dear friend I know in my heart you are always near here somewhere, even if I don't always see you. Thank you.

Rachael Harrie said...

Oh Grandpa, I wish I could give you a hug. I hope you find your silver lining soon, but we'll all be here with you no matter what.

Rach

Grandpa said...

Thanks Rach. The warmth of friendship will ease my pain and hopefully get me out of this before too long.

klahanie said...

Hi Grandpa,
I always respect someone who is open, honest, transparent.
It is indeed a poignant reminder that nothing in life should be taken for granted.
My thoughts and kind wishes are with you, my friend.
With respect and goodwill,
Gary.

Grandpa said...

Thank you so much Gary.
You would be the most likely person who can relate to these feelings of frustrations, sadness and helplessness.
I wish this new year brings you joy and happiness.

Ohiofarmgirl said...

Dear Grandpa, I'm so sorry for your situation. You haven't run any of us off... part of what draws us to you is your humanity - all of it. Share as much or as little as you like. We believe you that there has been a great loss and you don't need to explain anymore than that. Hang on, gentle friend. I'm sending you warm wishes across all these miles.

Grandpa said...

My dear friend Ohiofarmgirl, thank you for your kind words and comforting thoughts - they're good to know. Your good wishes give me the strength to carry on. I wish you and family all the very best for this year and beyond. Take care, my friend.

L'Aussie said...

Oh Grandpa, your pain is palpable. Whatever tragedy has overtaken you, yes, there is a reason, and yes, there is light at the end of what seems deepest darkness. Hang in there. So many people you haven't even met want to reach out and give you a hug. Please don't lock us out.

I just got back from an internet-free zone, so only just got back on my blog trail today. How I missed it and you all!

(((hugs)))

Faith said...

Grandpa,

Sharing something like never places a burden on people that they don't want to carry. That's how we love, by carrying others burdens.

I'm so sorry for the loss you have experienced. My prayers are lifted up for you.

The only silver lining that comes with death, is new life, offered by Yeshua. We can know our future for certain and we can have hope knowing we can see our loved ones again.

I ask that the Lord would bless you beyond anything you can imagine. Much comfort and peace.

~Faith

caterpillar said...

Hi...I hope you are feeling better...

Grandpa said...

L'Aussie - been looking out for you Denise, I know you'll be here soon enough. I care about all of you too much to just go away, but my energy has been drained and my enthusiasm waning... Thank you for being here as always and my best wishes to you.


Faith, as your name suggests you certainly have lots of it. Thank you for your kind thoughts and your prayers. God bless


caterpillar, I'm certainly better than a week ago when I could have gone completely to the dark side. Thank you, and all the best to you

Serena said...

I'm so sorry that you are going through such a rough time....know that you have friends in the blogging community who care. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

(((Hugs)))
Serena

Grandpa said...

Serena, thanks for being here with me. And thanks for your prayers.

**Hugs back**